He heart

He say ah wanna teef he head
But he wrong
Ah wanna teef he heart
Caress him, make him mine
Give him a whine
And dine
Ah wanna be d woman in his life
His wife
Ah wanna mother he chirren
Groom and rare dem good
Ah wanna be d one he confide in
D one he love and trust
Ah wanna make him lust
Ah wanna make his lunch
An breakfases too
Ah want God to point we and say you and you
Are a match made in heaven above
Nothing short of true love
And when people watch we an say how
How come is u an he
I wanna say I meet him in d perfect time on d right day
He thought wit he heart ah would play
But ah go play with "something else"
But shhh! doh tell
But hear me well
Ah love him an ah
want he heart
D feelings ah have like abstract art
Nobody could explain it
Not even d painter I say
But everybody know is a masterpiece
Dat cah replicate
So mind he tink ah wanna teef he head
One day he go realise ah wanna teef he heart...

PenSecrets
© 2010 by Tamara Cozier

He said

He said
I've liked her for a while
She's got a natural smile
Beauty from within
And she's strong
Dominant
I like that
She knows how to use her power to pull me in
I like to let her win
Then I'd ask for a kiss
Muah
Ahhhh
I love it
But she's too strong
Its wrong for a man like me
To be feeling like this
Love shouldn't feel like this
Like this
I feel
I feel oppressed
This can't be love from above
She's too much
It feels like oppression

Inspiration: Studio talk 9Oct2010 Icebreaker - Dominant, Oppression, Power, Kiss and Natural

Exam Etiquette (keep close to your heart.lol)

Exam etiquette: if someone is looking at your paper during the exam DO NOT assume they r attempting to copy, they may be ADMIRING your handwriting! "show off" your writing skills.lmao

Exam etiquette 2: If someone keeps asking for extra paper in the exam DO NOT panic, they're just collecting paper for next semester so they won't have to buy a notebook. Its called CUTTING COSTS. lol

Exam etiquette 3: If the invigilator catches u with notes on your hands DO NOT cold sweat, just clear your throat and say "its a new form of Mehndi." Be sure to use henna paste, make it fancy!

Exam Etiquette 4: Always read through the entire paper BEFORE u start the exam. If the questions look too difficult, FAINT for 3hrs then submit a sick leave form.

Exam Etiquette 5: If 30mins into the exam u find yourself struggling to answer questions, ask for EXTRA paper. This way u'll look as though u've already written a lot and those bastards who actually studied will get confused and possibly start panicking. It won't get u any answers but at least u'll have company to feel shitty. lmao

Exam Etiquette 6: If u try calculating how u can achieve "at least" the pass mark in the exam BEFORE u take d exam, u may b suffering from DUNCY BAT syndrome! U can either "admire" sum1's handwriting in the exam OR take a Leave of Absence & come back when u've gotten smart!

Exam Etiquette 7: 30mins b4 d exam ppl r talkin thru theory but it sounds like Greek to u...Do this: start talking educated nonsense just about 15mins b4 the exam & confuse those nerds. U must b convincing or it won't work. Goodluck!


A compilation of facebook status...originals by Tamara. Strategy to ease examination stress

Copyright 2010 by Tamara Cozier

RECIPE - How to make love

Take one woman
Take one man
Two teaspoons of compassion
And God's right hand
Add two ounces desire
And one fresh picked committment
Lightly saute two hearts and soul
Then place all ingredients in a large bowl
Mix well and when it's done
All parts are combined into one
Sprinkle with faithfulness
And serve with patience...



Copyright 2006 by Tamara Cozier

Trapped

I keep finding reasons to hold on
But he gave me a good reason to let go
He doesn't love me and he let me know
Trying not to let it show
That I'm hurt
Feel like dirt
But that's where we come from right?
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
Heartbreak is a must
On my life's stage
This relationship is a page
To be torn out
From my book, burnt
But I keep coming back
Like a junkie on crack
I'm a fool and I know it
But I love him
And I show it
Wanna stop
But can't
Like a motorcycle with no brakes
I feel my heart race
Want it to stop
Wanna be free
But I'm trapped
Reason to go
ReasonS to stay
It's like a burning building
I'm trapped
In smoke
Starting to choke
Coughing, but I like it somehow
Cause I'm standing in the doorway
But I'm looking back
At the everlasting flame
Contemplating
Now there's rain
Or so hose
So I run
This time I don't look back
I'm free
Like a bird
But you know what?
At the end of it all
A bird must return to its nest...


Copyright 2010 by Tamara Cozier

X-rated

She prance and palance
An' it stan up in he pants
Haaard!
Ent daiz what yuh wanted gyul
Ent u was looking fuh ting
Well take d dingaling!
He take it down, she pull d zip up
Now she want him to stop
But it too late
He cyah wait
Cuz she touch d right spot
An' now he get rel hot
An he play he hear she not
When she say, "Ah doh want it again!"
But is not a game
Yuh shame?
Ent yuh was lookin fuh ting?
Well lie down and take d dingaling
He give she and she bawl
She say "STOP! I must take dat call...
Is meh mammy, is true."
Steups, yuh see u
He turn on d TV
Is porn
She do it cuz she fraid she get horn
Now dem done and virginity gone
She own self she scorn
An he ain't care
So young girls beware
Quick quick he go pick up an next ting
An' give she d dingaling


Copyright 2010 by Tamara Cozier

Change

The only thing in life that is constant
Is change
So what if I was just laughing
Ah vex now
That's change
So what if I said I love u
Now I say to go
Things change
Move on!
Yeah I find u're strong
He stronger
And what?
Change.
Change how u act
Change the way u see things
Change
Is it strange?
Be who you are but learn to adjust
Adapt to the time, the situation
The mood
Change
A woman is always changing
Maybe a woman is change
She changes in the evening at dinner
Before, during and after her period
During pregnancy
After marriage
At work
In the bedroom
Change
But a man only changes once...
After u start to love him
Change!

iAM

It's trying to keep me down
It's a fight and a struggle
A battle or a war
But I will rise
Because I am
I am strong, a survivor
A go getter
An undying battery, like energizer I am
And because I am who I am
Through the darkness I see light and I rise
When they put lies against my name
I am never brought to shame
Because I am
I am strong, a survivor
I belong on a throne
I am a diamond, a precious stone
Royal and highly favoured I am
I am a princess, a queen
Nothing can change the way I see
Who I am
because I love who I am
And I am the one
Like Neo
Desired, wise
The one to bring change
And so I shall rise
Even when they try to make me fall
And as I rise
You will see who I am
Just because I am



Inspired by my fight with dengue.

She

You could tell she ghetto by d way she walk
Oh God! Wait till she talk
You know for sure dat ain't eatin with knife an fork
She too raw
Some mistake her for a whore
But she cool
She finish school
She make a chile too
But she ain't sure for who
She's not a whore
She jus raw
She say she like to lime
She only have two boyfriends at a time
An d neighbor does jus come to chill
Overnight
Cause he does pay d light bill
D phone an d cable too
She jus do what she have to do
She jus raw
D gyal say she is not no whore
She jus cool
Rel man like she since in school
An she like dem back
Rel girls wanna attack
But she doh care
She like when she pass and they stare
They bawl, she's a whore
She yell back, no she jus raw
She keep it real
She doh care how dey feel
They jealous ah she
Interrupting she scene
With she friends
Tryin to make it end
But d men doh stop
Dey give she money to shop
An she doh give dem notten
Or so she say
Only if they sleepy she give dem a place to stay
By she
But only for one night
After dat they outta sight
She say dat make dem want she more
They like how she raw
When they leavin she always remind dem that
She is not a whore.

Take a bow

You ain't see he fas
Dat ass!
He horn meh an a vex
Since las night ah sen' a tex'
He cyah answer yet
Fete
Fete he went
Like he aint know me
Neither meh family
Ah go do fuh he tail
When ah done ah sure to make jail
Fail
Failed is our relationship now
He can take a bow
How he could treat me so
He start off as a good man you know
But after all he's just a man
So he just do what he can
Cause pain
Pass blame
No shame
All d talk an big plan
To walk down d isle
He will go a thousand mile
For me
Who he?
Yeah right
All we do is fight now
For fooling me, he could take a bow!

© 2010 Tamara Cozier (PenSEcrEts)

A Picture of Bliss

A man who knows my heart
Mind that complements my soul
Old we grow together
A union never torn apart
Like art, a flawless picture of bliss
Miss to Mrs.
Tons of kisses
From he on me
Weeeeeeeeee
We walk together as one
None can change our minds
Hearts intertwine, drink wine and dine
Line...
"I love you"
I hear him say each and everyday
I pray together we'll stay
Each day
Night
Peace, love, hope
With his faults I cope
And he like mine too
That's what we do
Love
You won't understand
the man who knows my heart
He and I will never be apart
Like art, a flawless picture of bliss
Oh I've never felt like this :)

© 2010 Tamara Cozier (PenSEcrEts)

True Independence: Life

On life in general...
Where you end up has a lot to do with what you do now and how you think. You should approach life as positively as you can. Nothing is perfect but that doesn't mean that you can't have hope! Everyone should have dreams, dreams about careers, dreams about marriage, about children,about friends, about being successful...To stop dreaming is to cease to exist. Every difficult situation makes us stronger even though we don't realize it at first. If we got everything easy there would be no need to try, no need to push ourselves, no need to want more, no need to dream! But remember to put things in place to make your dreams come true. What's the use in just being a big dreamer if you never put it into reality.

Experience, learn, move forward, succeed - Pensecrets.

True Independence

A new year has begun and I'm not one for resolutions but I do believe in new beginnings, new ways of thinking and new ways of doing things. Last year was a very eventful year for me, I've learned sooooooooo much about myself, about friends, relationships and life in general, especially in the last quarter of the year.

On employment...
In September 2009 I lost my job due to discrimination just as I started (or rather as a result of) my Masters degree programme. Most people expected me to fall because to many, job security means everything! But for me, that disappointment led to a better opportunity, a reason to change, a need for creative thinking, a need to be self sufficient and the accomplishment of TRUE INDEPENDENCE. The typical definition of independence is that you have a secure, well paying job and can comfortably pay bills while still having some left to save and "palance." However, my experience has taught me that true independence is only achieved when you can stand on your feet in the absence of that paid employer. How many of us can truly say that we can live the lives we live if our job was taken from us today? I am not at all bashing being employed by any company I am just saying that we are dependent on our employers for that wage, salary or commission even if we are financially INDEPENDENT from our parents or partners.

I would suggest to everyone who has breath to save, invest, start a business, buy property...do something in 2010. Develop your independence, start small. Use your natural talents and aspirations as a guide to find the most suitable avenue for you.

On relationships...
I've learned that self confidence is a key ingredient to successful relationships. After years of unsuccessful relationships I started to feel as though I was falling short in some way, I felt as though I was not "good enough" and that was why things didn't work out...I always blamed myself. It was only after one simple conversation with God that I realised that I was dependent on a partner to make me feel as though I had worth or was special and that was the core reason for failure of relationships. Some of you maybe reading this and thinking I'm not like that, but maybe if you look a bit deeper you'll realise that you are like that to some extent. I didn't even realise I was like that until very late last year. No one should have the power to make you feel as though you're special, you should feel special BEFORE you enter a relationship. This way you have more to add to the union. If you cannot love yourself how can you truly love another? See yourself as a whole, love your self holistically, be confident, be truly independent. Know that you are worth more and you will not settle for mediocre.


On friendships...
Your best friends are those who will be there even when you ask them to leave. They'll forgive you and they'll never forget you. I've learned that your true friends don't just call when they have a problem or want something, sometimes they just call to say hey! I also learned that some people who you "thought" you didn't like, turn out to be some of the nicest people you know...cherish them. Get to know people first before deciding whether or not they're "friend material," don't assume. Do not judge anyone based on the experience of someone else. Be a friend and know your friends.

All the best in 2010 and beyond

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